Why do I write?

Because writing is very important, particularly in the following aspects:

1. Writing helps me think
2. Writing leaves a record of my thoughts and actions
3. Writing itself is practice to improve my writing skills

1. Writing helps me think and understand myself better

Whenever my mind is in turmoil, writing always calms me down. For example, after a nightmare in the morning, I quickly jot down the details I remember on paper. Although it may only take 2 minutes to record these strange details, it saves me a lot of anxiety—like worrying about what the dream might mean, or trying hard to recall more details. Also, when making decisions, simply writing down the pros and cons of each option gives me more confidence in my choices.

2. Writing leaves a record of my thoughts and actions, allowing others to know me

My father passed away in a car accident when I was 13 years old. That was in 1999, and he was only 35. I used to worry about whether I could live past 35, but I no longer have that concern. As I write these words, my 36th birthday has already passed more than a month ago. Sometimes I wish I had some written records left by my father, but our family doesn’t seem to have preserved any. I hope that if my children want to know me in the future, having these public writings to read would be meaningful. This year I read 1000 Years of Joys and Sorrows by Ai Weiwei, and learned more about the father-son relationship between Ai Weiwei and Ai Qing. I hope my writings can also help my children understand me better.

3. Writing itself is practice to improve my writing skills, making me a better writer

Whenever I read a good book, or a beautiful lyric or poem, I feel deep admiration for the author. What our eyes see is more or less the same, but through these authors’ words, you can feel their unique perspective. I plan to pick a topic to write about each month from now on.